I'm just beginning my steps..

It's hard...you know that feeling? the feeling where you cared and scared about someone..and you're afraid that something might to them and you just have to find them to know that they're ok...but suddenly at the end of the day, they doesn't even bother about all the efforts that you do and for them, you are only the burden for them...

Hah~ and this is suppose to be a sunshining page..hahahha..
Righhtttt~ the thing is, all i wanted to say is, eventhough there is this kind of person, when they are my friends, I'll still be stupid to do that kind of stupid thing for them..coz that's what friends are for...and I'll be doing it until finally one day I'll reach my limit..and when that time came, don't even think I would bother to care or help them out...
Thankfully, I'm an altruistic person, so forgiveness is an easy thing for me...but forget about it...will be in million years...hahaha...

I might be hurt...but as a Gemini, I can be ok easily...now with home comfort and love that surrounds me..hanging out and girl talk with Lala...and with the baby sleeping..as Abo is following Mama and Uncle went to Penang to visit Jimmy...so, yeah..we have the house to ourselves..hehhe...and I'll be fine...

being here, with this family, just makes me feel peace...and I'm starting to start wearing my hijab whenever I'm with them..and the feelings that I have is, I just feel complete...and I love this feeling...

Being able to finally see the light after my break-up...I am finally falling in love with the idea of loving something more than human...My Salvation...that's what I'm trying to be..and this is where I wanna go...Coz that True Love is what everyone wants and craving for..and I get to get the call from Him telling me that the road I'm in now is not where i supposed to be...and to be with Him is where I should focus on...and I do Miss Him a LOT...and I know, being in love with ordinary human makes me forget and neglected Him...and thus, why He made me broken hearted by making the person I thought was the best for me leave me...coz He is always the Best for me and He wants me to know that...and He wants me to come home...I will and I'm willing to...Coz no one will ever be good enough for me unless He told me so...one day...hopefully one day, He'll show me that person before I need to go back to His side...

Lots of Love,

-Aziey Aj 2011-