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Muslim by default...

Read an article about how most Malay muslim takes Islam for granted...
Makes my mind wander to the most deepest part...to my own past...my own ignorance...

Born  in a Malay mix family...Islam by default...
Live my entire childhood with the mixture of both malay+chinese+iban culture from both grandparents side..
I was proud of my heritage back then..
Still am now...

My knowledge of Islam is just its my religion that i must follow...
My malay grandfather never stop forcing us to keep praying night and day
Sometimes he even bring along a hanger to scare us..lol

Looking back at how ignorant I am sometimes makes me cringe
There's so many mistakes that I've done

Growing up, Alhamdulillah I was surrounded by friends that wear hijab
So, I find myself attracted to wear hijab at a very young age
My friends often complaints how they despised wearing it if not forced by their parents
While me, I was so eager to wear it but my immediate family is not so keen of the idea coz they are not wearing too
I love spending time and going out with my Iban grams..because she really supports my decision of wearing hijab
Oh well..i've told this hijab story before...

Sooo...as I grew up, hijab seems like something that I only wear at school..
During high school, I guess Allah really loves me, I was surrounded by friends that are very much like a real muslimah for me
They prayed 5times a day, they do sunat prayers all the time...and still being those crazy-in-love-with-movies/drama teenagers when it comes to tv shows that we love..esp Charmed or any taiwanese/japanese drama at that time..lol
Slowly i learned to be a good muslimah from them...coz I was so clueless in everything up to the part that I feel like I'm not good enough to be their friends
But they are a bunch of great girlfriends i have till now..
Syukur Alhamdulillah~

When I continued my study in matrix, its the first time I've been far away from home in a strange island where I know no one...
And before I've heard all about the "entertainment" that always catch up with most of the students that makes them lost...
So, being scared of my own "wild"-self, I try to restrained myself from being too carefree and careless by attending the mosque everyday
I began to became close with most of the mosque cliques
We do activities together, we spend our evening together
and my favourite activities is when we fast on monday and thursday every week and then we would cook and break our fast together at the mosque...
Its a very beautiful experience that I would never forget..

But after I finish my matrix, and return back home...
I feel like such a hypocrites coz I never used hijab if not in school..
So i let go of my hijab just to be what i feel "normal" in my family at the moment..
So when I entered Uni for my diploma, I decided not to wear hijab coz its in my hometown
And I was scared of meeting some of my coursemate outside uni and found out that I didnt wear hijab outside of class...
How ignorant I am back then...
More scared and afraid of humans perception rather than Allah... Astaghfirullah..

Sometimes, I do have that urge to wear hijab...
But i was scared of what people would said about my sudden change..
So i buried that idea deep inside me..

During all of these phases of mine,
I know I may not do all those 5prayers all the time...
But I always recite Ayat-Kursi and Al-Fatihah
I'm not a good muslimah...i admit
Even now I'm still struggling to control my temper and practice patience in everything I do

I used to take Islam for granted..
I keep saying that I'm a muslim..
but I dont act like one..
I dont do what Quran told me to do...I said I love Rasulullah SAW but I didnt follow His Sunnah..
I was a terrible person...

Allah have given me Hidayah time and time again...
most of the time, I just change for a moment...
then being caught up with the world, I'm back to where I used to be...ignorant

Finally, during my degree year...
where I met this beautiful and great family
they remind me of God and how to live the life as a true muslim
How you can be a good muslim and still live your life to the fullest..
They showed me how beautiful Islam is and reminds me that Allah still loves me
No matter how many sins that I have done
How terribly I have live my life before...

Since the change, I tried to be Istiqamah in everything I try to change
I try to make myself complete the 5prayers
I started wearing hijab...
and I was touched by my friend words recently.."Alhamdulillah ko betul2 berubah aziey...ko pakai hijab bukan sekadar utk berfesyen spt yg aku sangka"...
The reason i wear hijab is bcoz I wanted to change and it was a first step for me to do..
But most people around me thought that I do it bcoz its the trend now...
Subhanallah...Allah is more Knowing and hopefully that my intention is as pure then as it is now...

Ever since the change, I tried to learn more on how to be a true muslimah
I'm changing myself slowly...
and sometimes I do feel like I'm not good enough everytime I heard words that are hurtful enough due to my changes
I still want to be wild and playful..i just have to control how to limit myself
Sometimes, I do stray from the right path
I did something that I thought was very terrible...and all I hope is Allah will forgive all my sins..past future present

I just need to get away from all those deviation...

"laillaha illa anta subhanaka inni kuntu minal zolimin"
Sesungguhnya aku adalah diantara org2 yg menzalimi diri sendiri..

I'm still learning..and I'm gonna start learning the basic again..
All those Al-Quran, Sunnah, Hadis, Feqah, Sirah, Tauhid...
I feel like there is so much more to learn now
Now that I finally realized how much I've been missing and dissing...

xoxo
-naraj2013-                                                  

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Prayer...

Just something that I stumble upon to be shared...
Insya-Allah may it help us all...


  1. Does prayer work?
  2. What impact does prayer have on your brain?
  3. What benefits, if any, does prayer offer to your physical, mental, and emotional well-being?
  4. And if prayer activity can be scientifically measured, can you improve the practice to achieve even better results? . . .

Because not only can you measure prayer as brain activity, but prayer also has been scientifically proven to help:
  • Reduce stress and lower your blood pressure . . .
  • Boost your resistance to illness and disease . . .
  • Neutralize harmful negative emotions . . .
  • Enhance your memory and mental function . . .
  • Prevent dementia and Alzheimer's disease . . .
  • Decrease your suffering from pain . . .
  • Give you a healthier, longer, and happier life . . .
The proven health benefits of prayer.
  • Improved immune function
  • Reduced risk of death from heart attack and stroke
  • Less stress — and increased peace of mind
  • Reduction or elimination of panic attacks, anxiety, and depression
  • Reduced impact from chronic pain
  • A more positive, happy outlook on life
  • A healthier, longer, more fulfilled life
And let's begin by defining "prayer." as any mental activity that includes:
  1. Traditional prayers practiced by people of religious faith, such as making a petition to God, or expressing gratitude for God's goodness.
  2. Meditation, or contemplative reflection on a power greater than oneself, which can be God, the Universe, or all Life.
  3. Focused positive thinking, such as speaking affirmations, setting worthwhile goals, and maintaining positive thoughts and speech.
  4. Attending a religous service and praying with the congregation.
Of course, if you're a person who prays regularly, you already know that prayer has brought many positive benefits to your life . . .
Prayer and spiritual practices impact the different parts of your brain, and that, in turn, affects your physical and mental health.
Note the four major areas of the brain: the frontal lobe, the anterior cingulate, the parietal lobe, and the limbic system, which is comprised of several smaller parts.

Each of these areas plays an important role, but according to Dr. Newberg, two of the four parts are much more important to your health and happiness, especially as you age.Prayer stimulates the parts of the brain that help keep you healthy nad happy.
Your frontal lobe, which is located just behind your forehead, is activated when you focus your attention, or when you plan, reason, read, or speak.

Obviously, this area is extremely important, as these are things you do almost every waking hour of every day.But the danger is that the frontal lobe can shrink with age, and this shrinkage is associated with memory loss, mental decline, and even dementia and Alzheimer's.

Wouldn't it be wonderful to avoid this life-robbing mental decline? Well, now you can. You see, prayer stimulates your frontal lobe, helps keep it healthy, and prevents age-related shrinkage but casual praying for just a few minutes per day has no significant impact on the frontal lobe.To get good results, you have to devote a reasonable amount of time daiily to prayer

The anterior cingulate, the area of the brain that's activated when we feel empathy and compassion for others.This part of our brain is what distinguishes us from animals and prayer activates your anterior cingulate, which helps you to feel compassion for others and a loving connection to God, or all Life.

There are two parts of your brain that are sometimes useful, but when unnecessarily activated can actually cause bodily and mental harm.
Plus, why you're better off with less activity in these areas of your brain . . .
First are your parietal lobes, which give you a sense of yourself separate from other people and things in the world.

This area is important for spatial reckoning, physical self-awareness, and ego, but activity here can also give you a feeling of isolation and loneliness. And what's more, brain activity here is not associated with health benefits.

The time you spend praying, attending religious services, and participating in the services with the congregation deactivates your parietal lobes!
This helps you to forget yourself and your problems, and instead to feel love and compassion for others, as well as a closeness to God, or all Life.
There are many scientifically proven health benefits to this; for example prayer can significantly reduce  how you experience pain.

That's because prayer reduces activity in the parietal lobes, which causes you to have less awareness of yourself and more awareness of others.

The limbic system includes several parts situated just above your spinal cord. This is the primitive area of your brain, sometimes called reptilian, because even reptiles have a limbic system.

The limbic system is where negative emotions are produced, such as anger, fear, and resentment, as well as anxiety, depression, and pessimism.

Some of these emotions were necessary for the "fight or flight" response our ancestors needed to survive. But they have far less value in our modern civilized society, especially when you're mature and living a stable life.

Under such circumstances, negative emotions will unnecessarily cause physical and emotional harm but payer turns off your limbic system.

The more you diminish the activity in your parietal lobes and limbic system, at the same time you increase the activity in your frontal lobe and anterior cingulate — and as a result, you'll be HAPPIER AND HEALTHIER!
Simply put, prayer and spiritual practices increase activity in the areas of your brain that are most helpful to you, and diminish activity in the areas that are less helpful and even harmful.
Here are just a few of the amazing benefits of daily prayer . . .
  • Increases your ability to feel love and compassion . . .
  • Improves your memory and mental function . . .
  • Prevents your frontal lobe from shrinking, which is the cause of memory loss,
    mental decline, and even Alzheimer's.
  • Reduces stress and negative emotions, so you can feel at peace
    with yourself and others.
You can almost say that prayer is a kind of "fountain of youth."

The following benefits have been reported in leading medical journals . . .

Two studies showed that praying for a person increases your capacity for forgiveness. And a third showed that forgiveness was associated with better overall health and satisfaction with life. (Florida State University; Psychological Science)

An analysis of 42 studies involving 125,000 people found that people who participate in spiritual practices are healthier and live longer. (Health Psychology)

Several studies have shown that prayer and other spiritual practices reduce or alleviate depression. (The American Journal of Psychiatry)

A study at Utah State University showed that older people with strong religious beliefs handled stress as well as persons 30 to 40 years younger and did not experience an elevation of blood pressure. (Annals of Behavioral Medicine)

In a study of 202 people suffering from chronic pain, researchers found that those who prayed or concentrated on positive thoughts were less affected by the pain and had a more positive outlook on life. (Journal of Behavioral Medicine)

In a study of 6,000 Californians between the ages of 21 and 75, those who attended weekly religious services reduced the risk of disease and death to the same extent as "not smoking or abusing alcohol." (International Journal of Psychiatry in Medicine)

Researchers at Duke University tracked nearly 4,000 people age 65 and older and found 40% less risk of elevated blood pressure among those who prayed daily and attended religious services weekly. (International Journal of Psychiatry in Medicine)

Researchers at Yale University School of Medicine studied more than 2,000 people over age 65 and found that those who attended religious services were less likely to lose their mental faculties or become physically disabled. (Journal of Gerontology)

Researchers at the University of Iowa found that people who make spiritual practices a regular part of their lives boost their resistance to viruses and other infections, which they concluded accounted for their healthier, longer lives. (Health Psychology)
And by contrast . . .

Researchers at the Harvard School of Public Health tracked 28,000 men between the ages of 42 and 77 for 10 years. They found those who had no close friends or spiritual practice in their lives had significantly increased risk of death from heart disease. (American Journal of Epidemiology)

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khilaf...

khilafnya manusia kerana marah
khilafnya manusia kerana kecewa
khilafnya manusia kerana terluka...
ya akula manusia itu...
dan kerana kata2 seorang insan yg ku sayangi, hatiku terguris...
dan perasaan kesal dan marah menyelubungi diri
dan keikhlasan pun hilang di hati ini

Ya Allah...ampunkan dosaku yg khilaf ini
Peliharalah hatiku dr hasutan syaitan
Tabahkan hatiku mhadapi dugaanMu

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