Hopeless...

I was scared...
I feel  lost...
Scared that I would lose the best gift Allah has given me during my darkest hour..
It was hard to lost sight of what I know as the best I would ever knew..

As a fragile human,
i can't help to feel these hopelessness...
I tried everything I could to save whatever it is that i can grasp unto
I forgot...
I forgot all His promises because i dwell too much on my own pain
I forgot that, the closer we are trying to reach Him
the more harder the test His gonna give to us
this is His way of showing love to us
so that we will keep asking from Him

and my way of showing my love may differ
i can't stand letting the one i love all alone
letting them dwell with their pain alone
i try to be there for them, to ease their pain
but sometimes, i just dont understand the need that one have to be alone
so i will end up annoying and suffocating them
instead of giving them my support and love

I'm still learning
I still have a lot to learn
I just hope i will learn fast enough

xoxo
-naraj2014-