Istikharah.. the best way to make decision in your life
I didn't really do istikharah before... until this year..
I depends on my tahajjud and dhuha to ask for ease in my business in this world..
Until I met him, the person that I actually dreamt my future with..
It was fast and unexpected...So i did my istikharah, to make sure that I did a right decision this time.
To make sure that my heart will be safe and at ease..
with istikharah, anything that happen with ease means its the right decision for you.
the same thing goes for us...
Everything happen with ease, getting the blessings from the family came with ease, being together in a long distance became easy...
Alhamdulillah...
We became attached to each other,
Imagining our future together which we prayed would be sooner..
But, Subhanallah...
I guess we became too attached with each other that we didnt realized how our heart have swayed..
our heart became attached to each other more than Allah...
We got consumed by our own feelings..
Astaghfirullah...
I myself would still continue to be swayed if it was lead on..
But Syukur Alhamdulillah...he reminded me
he reminded us how we are getting strayed from Allah
how it makes us hypocrites to our own self...
It was hard for me to let go,
it really was...
I try to turn to Allah for the best answer, i did istikharah again and again for the best way..
my heart was shattered for the worldly affection..
i feel devastated when I thought finally i've found the one..
Little did I know that maybe that was the answer I was seeking...
little did I know that Allah is answering me...
For this Ramadhan, it is the most challenging Ramadhan for me..
and now I realized, He wants me to get closer to Him..
to focus myself only for Him, for I have never been doing all these ibadah as much as I did this Ramadhan..
Alhamdulillah...
Maybe this is not meant for me yet...
Maybe my sins makes this gifts for me been taken away...
Reflections is all that I have now..
To reflect and repent towards Him...
Insya-Allah, He is the ultimate planner after all...
xoxo
-naraj2014-
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